This might be too late for writing a testimonial about college life since it’s my second year. However, I know, it’s never been too late to share.
So it was last night when I unexpectedly fell asleep while the laptop screen was displaying an interesting 9gag.com post. I was so tired that reading an amusing thing couldn’t get drowsiness away. That was the fifth time for this week, leaving me a rough conclusion that, gosh, I was exhausted every single day.
Luckily, no activity lining in agenda last night. Otherwise, I would had been cursing myself to death for falling asleep. Yeah, it happens almost every day but no, I just can not keep hating myself every waking morning over the guiltiness.
This might be a syndrome I figured out since college. Starting from minor guiltiness like aforementioned to one that causes real insecurity like not signing up for any organizations or not grading A though an A- is also okay or not registering for short semester and so forth.
While trying to fix things up, I notice that on the other hand, life drives a racing car on its maximum speed. A sudden brake will cause crash and get me injured. Okay, I’m exaggerating. But it’s very shocking to realize that this very second is a lost moment of half-end of my sophomore year. Oh, it’s tremendously fast.
However, it really is not a choice to stop the time and give up on what I really want. Higher education is a place where “life is about choices” quote strongly prevails. It’s the first place where making unstructured decisions (decisions coming out of uncommon situation) would be daily dish. Deciding becomes essential when you understand that what you do today affects your future.
Don’t worry too much. Doing mistakes is considered as learning process. This is the best part of being a student. You’re as free as an adult with no obligations to complete the obligations of adult. Most importantly, you can design what you want to be in the future, erase it, rearrange, and redo things while keep believing that what matters most is to learn.
Therefore, no matter how killing the tasks are, how intimidating the competitions are, and how depressing the guiltiness is, I believe that years being college student are worth living.
And you know, it’s always been an honor to live the life worth living and doing things worth doing.
Thanks, college life.